I am not really used to talking about myself and trying to fix myself. I am used to talking to others and trying to help others. Even while i am trying to type this out i am speechless and trust me that is not my normal self. so i thought i would get who i am out there in the easiest way that i know how, my poetry. so here is one that best describe me and how i see myself.

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have you ever seen the movie 'Poetic Justice'? Well if not, there is this one scene where Justice is looking in the mirror and she starts playing with her hair and for a few moments in time she thinks she is the most beautiful person in the world.

however after a few minutes of those thoughts she comes back own from the clouds and she begins to slowly see the real justice, the person who is scared, insecure and afraid of falling in love again. Then she begins to cry, just like me she starts to cry, because that person that she saw in the mirror for just a few minutes was not her.

now all justice was, was a character in a movie but however i am a person in real life that doesn't have to follow a script. i have to look in the mirror and see the most beautiful person in the world and only wish that i could stay like that. in reality though i know i am just staring at this person for just a few minutes, hoping, that one day i can see that person for more than just a few minutes so that someone can see be beautiful for the rest of my life.


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